Author: Josef
Series: Stand Alone
Genre: Autobiography
Publisher: Self – Published
Release Date: Sept 17 2016
Edition/Formats: eBook
Blurb/Synopsis:
A dark Journey into the light is the true story of a man who, for sixty
years, led a double life.
Josef is lost in a secret world of sexual gratification, a
true-life Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, unable to halt the “roller coaster of
conflicting emotional extremes that never stopped long enough for me to get
off.”
“I gave myself to that sexual playground completely, and
loved every minute of it when it was happening. It was only afterwards that
spikes of shame, guilt, and self-¬loathing would be driven deep into my heart.”
He traces the beginnings of his obsession to his childhood,
where his natural innocent curiosity and need for exploration were at odds with
his Catholic upbringing and the view of his extremely repressed mother, both of
whom regarded the human body as ‘dirty’ and ‘shameful’.
For sixty years, Josef lived a secret double life. The only
people who knew about this other life were the professional mistresses,
trannies, and prostitutes with whom he indulged every conceivable sexual
fantasy. No one in his ‘other’ life had any idea of who he really was or the
things he did.
Yet his secret life claimed a terrible toll. The failure of
his first marriage. The loss of his son. The loss of his beloved second wife.
Only after extensive therapy was he finally able to see and
feel the light of compassion, and allow the healing energy of forgiveness to
begin taking away the pain.
In his journey, Josef explores an astonishing variety of
topics. In addition to sexual addiction and the hidden world of BDSM, he delves
into the burden of guilt of the Catholic Church, fear, political correctness,
non-¬judgment, love and loss, philosophy, the soul, spiritual awakening, and
healing.
This is the journey of an ordinary man lost in an
extraordinary secret, dark world, who ultimately finds his way out of the
tangled mess through the power of love and forgiveness.
